It is 2.29 a.m. and I have just finished watching this movie called Meet Joe Black starring Brad Pitt and Anthony Hopkins. Brad Pitt plays this character called Death ( which is actually death itself ) that is on 'vacation' and comes down to earth to experience human emotions, life, that sort of thing.
I have to agree that it is very touching, with all the father-daughter thing going on as well as the lovey-dovey scenes, but it really did trigger off my 'emo-mode' button. So here I am doing a blog on what I am feeling right now.
I am leaving Singapore on the 9th of December, which means that I have less than a month left here, and I wonder how I grew or matured in terms of how I handle my emotions and present myself to people. Here's a few things that the movie touched on ( well not exactly, but I kinda modified it to suit a junior college student ):
Character development . (Don't worry, it's not a SportsXcel sharing session )To be honest, I was very self-centered back in high school ( that explains all the trouble and conflicts that I made ) and I have been asking myself this same question, over and over again: When we worry or express anxiety over someone or some event, how do you tell that he or she really means it? Do we base it on our actions, the words we use, the amount of tears that we shed? I have to tell you that I used to be very teary-eyed ( in primary school ) and as we grow older ( especially for guys ) we seem to cry less. True, there are some instances that you can't help letting it flow out but many a time, people prefer holding back their emotions and not let people know what they are truly feeling inside.
Friends. Ok, this part here is interesting. I still remember our primary school memento that we passed round for everyone to write in before our graduation. One section that particularly interests me even till now is the 'best friend' , 'good friend', and the 'bad friends' part ( believe me, we actually write down the names of the students we hate most ). Here's a question: What constitutes a best friend? Is it someone you can tell everything to? Or is it someone that you can count on or depend on when you're in trouble? Define trouble. I believe that there is a thin line between 'real' trouble and plain 'making use of the current situation' kind of trouble, where that 'best friend' exists solely to be squeezed of his or her 'useful juices' and then discarded once they're dry and wrinkled. Believe me, everyone has been through this situation on way or another, be it being squeezed or the "squeezer" ,lol. I have to admit that at times I do that too, and I just want to say that I do feel guilty about it ( I wouldn't be writing this if I didn't ).
Girlfriend. Two of my friends came up to me today after chem paper and asked if I was attached because some friend of theirs told them that he or she had a hunch. Ok, I am single and have been single for quite some time now. Desperatometer to find a girl? On a scale of one to ten, maybe a three. Number one, I am not very particular but I am definitely not in favour of those who go for it just because they can't stand being single. I'm not naming names but I do know couples that I feel are really superficial when it comes to being in relationships. Ok, I'm not a love doctor so case closed.
I am going to sleep now, and I do believe that I have once again successfully lulled y'all into reading another three-page long crap essay, but if you're reading this before bedtime, feel free to think about these 'thoughts' of mine, haha, well that's all this time round. One last paper for A-levels , then I'm gonna go wild again (FINALLY !) haha!!!!!
Cheers,
TIMOthy
p.s. I know Meet Joe Black is a very 90s movie ( Brad Pitt still had his 'Ken' look then) but I have to tell you that it is a nice flick, so watch it if you all have the time. The newest happening film that I want to watch is Quantum of Solace though, physics paper one, damn you!!!!!
